I'm so tired of it already

I haven't blogged much this week.  Mostly because I had to get over the drama from Wednesday.  My estranged husband wrecked my bike before he decided he was unhappy and left me.  Part of our arrangement was that he repay me for the damage.  He came over Wednesday to pay me part of the cash.  

When I saw him I felt hurt and angry.  I asked him to delete his account from my computer, we talked a bit, he acted like everything was fine.  At that point I wanted to know why he left.  He said "I'm not happy here and your not going to change my mind." Ouch! I wasn't trying to, I just wanted some questions answered.  He said he has been going out to bars and meeting people, I should do the same.  I told him that my life was being a wife to him and making him happy.  That's when he said it; "I don't want you anymore."

I cried. Hard.  He said he was sorry and left.  I am broken.  I cried for 2 hours after that.  A steady continuous  flow of tears and snot.  Then it became clear.  It is over for good.  He couldn't have been more exact.  I need to get through this.