Break down in the diner

This morning started off well.  I woke up early and took the dog for a walk.  I knew I was going to the gym so I headed off ready to work it out!  I met Isis and we started our daily 1 mile run.  We usually talk about things when we run.  I confessed I called him after a week of him not calling me.  I had to ask why after four years he can't pick up a phone and ask me if I am okay!  He said he didn't want to cause anymore pain than he already did.  I told him I just needed to vent, "did you find someone else to occupy your time?" No.  "I mean, we're already separated, why lie now?"  His answer was still the same.  I didn't flip out, lose it, or curse him out.  I just vented.  He said he was sorry.  Yes, he is.  He brought up the fact that he owes me money for dumping my Honda CBR600RR.  He would pay me "everything I deserve."  I feel I deserve an honest husband.

After running I felt better.  We continued on to a crazy full body circuit consisting of legs, core, and arms we did that twice before I had nothing left.  We decided we would come back at 2pm to get out "2-a-day" in.  We both agreed some bag work is what we needed.  I guess that's a perk of being unemployed.

So as we cooled down, we decided that it would be good to feed.  Seeing as I don't have much of an appetite after being hung out to dry. I just FEED, not eat.

We ordered a chicken wrap with a side of fruit to share.  She wouldn't let me "have a party" by ordering a side of fries.  Then she smiled at a toddler sitting with his family behind us.  The mother was holding a new born, and the toddler's father made a napkin hat for him.  He received a call.  "Yes, we'll see you after we go home to clean up the house a little."  Then I thought about that man.  He helped his wife clean, was feeding the toddler, and seemed happy.  I started to tear up.  Isis noticed and came over to hug me.  "Don't worry.  You're not going to be alone."  I cried.  Excused myself, went to the bathroom and tried to get it together.  When I sat back down at the table she asked what happened?  "That's everything I wanted." 

The chicken wrap was served and for the first time I realized just how hungry I was.